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I'm artistic, sincere, bright and funny (all true except for the funny part). I moved to Israel in 1999 from the Big Apple, yes, New York. Interesting, I must say, but above all, life is wonderful. I have three kids who I'm just crazy about. Check out my msn space. You can read about life here and see some really nice pictures of our life in Israel.

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Life in Israel, my gorgeous kids, and being in love ...
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Hello,from Italy,nice blog,the photos are wonderful,I lived for about 30 years in Israel,reading your blog made me remember all the nice things that I left in my own country. Have a nice time...bye
June 17
No namewrote:
Great site. Very well maintained and updated. Photographs are neatly arranged.
 
Deepak
Nov. 7
No namewrote:
I clicked on spot on the worldmap and found your page. Your pictures are really great and very alive. I am happy to have seen them. I am danish, live in Germany and the landscape here is so different.
Love Manisha
Apr. 20
March 23

Life is a beautiful thing

 
I haven't written lately.  I assume it's because things are good.  Rainbow
 
I also find that when I do have some free time, the last thing I want to do is sit at the computer.
 
Barak and I are living together in a beautiful 6 BR house in a lovely community.  The kids all get along great.  Barak is doing well in his business, and so am I.  He is wonderful and I love him so much, as he does me.
 
Our home is filled with love, harmony and good food Smile
 
Our last hike was in a huge natural crater in the Judean desert.  I'll try to get pictures up one of these days.  (no camels, though)
 
Alessia is in TAU (Tel Aviv University) doing her prep courses for something in the psychology field ... she will decide as she moves on what she specifically wants to major in.  She is still dating Doron, a wonderful guy, and are talking about moving in together in the near future.  She is lovely, fun, intelligent and learning so much about life.
 
Sagiv is a sergeant in the IDF Artillery.  He comes home once or twice a month for a few days and is out in the field the rest of the time.  It isn't easy but he is always smiling and positive.  He turns 20 this week and luckily was able to come home for the weekend, so we had lots of family get togethers, food and cake.  He told me today that they're moving him to Jenin ... so if I may ask that you say a prayer for his safety.
 
Edon is in 10th grade, on the student board, opening a radio station in his HS, learning to play guitar on his own, and will be getting his motorcycle license soon.  He's spoiled and gets everything he wants through sheer will.  I know this will of his will take him far in life, but he's 16 now, and I can't want until he gets out of this phase of his life.  Confused
 
Tragically, my brother, Stacey, passed away last Summer.  I was in NY for the funeral and shiva.  It's awful and I don't really want to go into it here.  He was a good soul.  May he be remembered in blessing.
 
Since his death, my biological mother (Shelley) is talking about moving to Israel, too.  She isn't so young but if she makes the decision to succeed at this, she will.  She has grandchildren here and can make a beautiful life for herself.  She's more or less alone in the States, so it will be a good move, I believe ...
 
That's it for now.  It's late and I have work tomorrow.
 
Thanks for visiting Red rose
 
 
July 10

These are the days ...

 
 
Listening to the song?  Waiting for it to finish buffering?
 
Well, read along, and fill yourself with good energy.
 
These are the days!
 

These are the days
These are days you’ll remember
Never before and never since, I promise
Will the whole world be warm as this
And as you feel it,
You’ll know it’s true
That you are blessed and lucky
It’s true that you
Are touched by something
That will grow and bloom in you

These are days that you’ll remember
When May is rushing over you
With desire to be part of the miracles
You see in every hour
You’ll know it’s true
That you are blessed and lucky
It’s true that you are touched
By something that will grow and bloom in you

These are days
These are the days you might fill
With laughter until you break
These days you might feel
A shaft of light
Make its way across your face
And when you do
Then you’ll know how it was meant to be
See the signs and know their meaning
It's true
Then you’ll know how it was meant to be
Hear the signs and know they’re speaking
To you, to you

 

by Natalie Merchant - 10,000 Maniacs
 
July 02

A PHOTO OF US!!

 

I just love this picture of us!

 

 

We have almost NO pictures of us together since one of us is usually taking the photo. A friend took this one during a hike, and scanned it off a print ... I'll get a better scan up here one of these days.

I just love it.

 

Two more weeks before we LIVE TOGETHER!!!

                               

 

June 06

Moving

 
Yes, I'm moving!  We're moving!
 
A few months ago, Barak and I decided to move in together.
 
We searched in the area where he now lives, and found a beautiful house for rent.  A veterinarian is moving to California for three years (to study Equine Orthopedic Surgery).  What luck!
 
It's a big house, 6 bedrooms (kinda) with two floors and a wood staircase.  Anything wood is special in Israel since it must be imported - not really much land to grow forests for furniture on.
 
The upstairs has four and  a half bedrooms.  Edon gets one, Shai and Aya will share one for their visits, another one with a walk-in closet for Barak and I, and one more small bedroom which will either be an office or a guest room (most likely for when Alessia comes).
 
The downstairs had the clinic, with a private entrance, which we are making Sagiv's room, and another small room, which I'm hoping will be the office so Alessia can have the room upstairs.  The problem with the small room downstairs is that it's a bomb shelter room (sadly mandatory for each home in Israel), so it had a "closed" feeling.  I'm sure we'll find a solution.
 
The living room, dining room and kitchen are one big room downstairs and has a great feeling.  Off the living room is a sliding glass door to the back yard, lush and peaceful.  There's even a special fenced area for Pookey (our boxer).
 
So, yes, it's wonderful!
 
We're moving on July 16th.
 
The finances will be easier since we'll be sharing them, but the moving expenses are high and stressing me out.  I need to fix up the house I'm living in now - getting it back into the same condition I moved into it (painting, yard, fixing, etc.) and also moving two homes into one!
 
I'll try to sell or give away what I don't need.
 
Barak is always his wonderful self.  Supportive, kind, gentle and warm.  He's the most amazing person I've ever met.  His daughters are adorable, loving and fun.
 
Our new home will be filled with love, of this I'm sure.
 
April 20

Spread Love

 
 
Spread Love

Spread love everywhere you go:
first of all in your own house.
Give love to your children,
to your wife or husband,
to a next door neighbor . . .
Let no one ever come to you
without leaving better and happier.
Be the living expression of God's kindness;
kindness in your face,
kindness in your eyes,
kindness in your smile,
kindness in your warm greeting.

Mother Teresa
 
 
 
January 30

3 Months

 
It's been about three months since I met Barak.  It's wonderful and the love will continue to grow.
 
I had just begun to think to myself, "Perhaps it's time to consider getting comfortable with living without a partner."  Funny how life is like that sometimes. 
 
He is the person whom I have been waiting for.  Something simply created our meeting, specifically at this time.
 
Barak has a "Wish" board.  He cuts out pictures of things that he wants and pastes them on his board.  He has pictures of travel, sports, money, cars, houses and much more on his wish board.  He told me that the same week we met, he decided he was ready to meet his soul mate, so he cut out pictures of happy couples and pasted them on his board. 
 
Maybe that did it?
 
A few days later, I was hitch-hiking home after work, and a car pulled over.  It was Barak.  I've taken thousands of hitch-hikes, but this felt different from the beginning.  Not to mention that I've never considered dating someone who gave me a ride (even though many seemed to be very nice).
 
We decided to exchange phone numbers, and I told him I'd introduce him to someone - one of my available friends.  Ah, that's a funny story.  If you know me, ask me about it.  Whatever!  In the end, here we are, loving, respecting, caring and sharing.
 
After a couple of dates, we finally had our first kiss.  I had a cherry in my glass.  I asked him if he wanted the cherry.  What do you think he said?
 
He said, he wanted half
 
Voila ... the first
 
 
So... ok, back to other stuff
 
The weekend before last, we went on a family hike.  What's a family hike?
 
Barak lives in a community with many young families.  A group of them decided that about once a month, they would get together and go somewhere special with the kids.  Sometimes its a day trip, and sometimes its overnight.
 
This one was an overnight trip to a place next to the Dead Sea called Metzuke Dragot.  A magnificent place.  It's a river which flows from the upper plateaus, filtering down through the desert sand, and flowing into the Dead Sea.  When it's raining, it's impossible, but we did the hike during a dry weekend.
 
Imagine around 12 families, about 50 people, hiking through this magnificent riverbed.  Everyone helps each other, carrying, sharing, talking.
 
There are new pictures here if you want to see it.  Unfortunately, the resolution on msn spaces is low, so if you want to see them full size, I'll try to get them on my esnips account.  You may even want one as a desktop :)
 
So, the hike was long, we started around 10:00am, and finished around 5:00pm.  There were kids as young as three years old!  And believe me there were a few places where it was very difficult and even dangerous.
 
I loved every minute.
 
Edon came with us, and although he was the oldest "kid" there, he took the role of an adult, helping the little ones, helping the "guys" with the bbq's and such.  He loved it, too!
 
I want Alessia to come with us on one, too.
 
Yeah, it's about three months.  I met Barak right around my birthday.  I remember during our first car ride telling him about the concert I was going to on my birthday.
 
Yeah ...
 
I'm happy
 
Very happy
 
Very in love
 
 
 
בית הבובות - סיגפו...
December 23

Two trips to the South

 
 
So many things to write about, and so little time.  This entry won't be as poetic as many of my others.  It's kinda like a catch-up entry because so many cool things have happened.
 
 
The most amazing thing to write about is Barak.
 
 
We went on an amazing 3-day jeep-camel-desert hike last weekend ... but let's go back a step.
 
 
 
Two weeks before that, my company sent us down to Eilat for an incredible weekend.
 
We stayed at Herods, a Sheraton Hotal, a real castle!  At least I felt like it was.
 
I went with Alessia and we had a ball!!
 
We visited Mitzpe Ramon, the largest natural crater on the planet (meaning it was not caused by a disaster, but simply by the elements and time).
 
There's an incredible picture of Alessia on the ledge of the crater.
 
The first night, the company took out a Brazilian BBQ restaurant, really nice.
 
The second day, we went to a camel farm, went for a short hike through the desert and we each got massages in a straw hut.  Really nice!
 
The third day was just hanging out, walking on the boardwalk, and we even found segways zipping around - and got to ride on them too (that was so cool!)
 
We flew back to TA ... it was a great weekend!
 
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Last weekend ...
 
First night of Hanukah, Friday night, Barak invited me to his parents house for a big family dinner.  It was so nice and I was so happy to be there.  His family is wonderful.
 
Saturday morning, up early and packed up the 4X4 pick up truck for the long haul to the desert.
 
We met up with Barak's friends, Tzach and Idit and their four kids (Shir F14, Shaked F12, Shachaf M5 and little Yaara F3.5)
 
So there were 10 of us
 
Barak has two beautiful little girls, Shay 9 years old and Aya 7.  I put up a bunch of pictures.  They are wonderful and I loved them the first time I saw them.
 
We stopped on the way for a little picnic, and then continued on to "The Dune."  I had no idea what that was.
 
We drove and drove through the desert, following maps showing unmarked roads in the desert.  We eventually got to this huge sand dune, I would guess that it was about 50ft high?  Maybe more.  It's hard to calculate, but it was huge.  There were a handful of buggies, jeeps, 4x4's and motorcycles all taking turns trying to get up the dune.  Few succeeded.  We decided to go up foot.  What an experience - sand whipping around you, wind blowing, cool sand, warm sun and a spectacular view of the desert from a birds eye view.  We ran down!
 
We decided to head to camp ... but we got lost.  Watching the shadows for direction, trying to read the maps, little to no markings, the sun is getting lower.  That's all we need is to get lost in the desert!  Eventually we found our way.  It's funny, we were nowhere even close to where we thought we were!
 
Then we finally arrived at our hut.  Yes, a hut.  It's this little oasis in the middle of nowhere.  A guy (I think his name is Ofer) decided to build mud huts, got a couple of camels, running water, hired a chef, and invited people to come.  No electricity, no cellular or wireless, only pure fun.
 
We bunkered down, sat by the fire, drinking bedouin tea and coffee, singing, playing guitar.  This is what we did every night.
 
We beaded our hair, we made sand candles we hung out in the hammocks and just had fun.
 
The first day we decided to take a camel hike, a long one, an incredible one.  We traveled for hours, learning about the wildlife, the trees and herbs and we learned about camels.  We headed up to a place where there was a well, or maybe still is a well.  Wells are very important in the desert and have drawn people to it for thousands of years.
 
This site had human markings on the stones from 50,000 years ago.  It was an awesome experience to touch the carvings, one of them even depicts Moses with the two tablets, dating back to that precise time!  Just imagine!
 
The next day, we headed for a path called The White River.  You know, it sounds boring, but watching how Barak maneuvered the pickup, resetting the gears, letting air out of the tires, just to be able to get over steep dunes of deep sand.  It was exhilarating, bumping around, climbing up and down.  We all had such a great time.
 
Along the river path, which is really very white, by the way, we came across another HUGE dune of the softest sand.  We climbed up.  It's like walking up a down escalator!  And then we all rolled down ... what a feeling!
 
There are pictures of all of this ... but the best way to experience it is to do it yourself.
 
Barak and I are together most of the time, this weekend allowed us to be together in a different setting, among friends and family.
 
I am incredibly happy ...
 
We just need to find a way to get more sleep
 
 
December 08

Dreams do come true

 
 
I write this and know that it is still new.
Time will always tell.
 
  
 
It has taken many years, many interesting turns and twists. 
I've been through so much, so many experiences, both good and bad.
 
 
 
I have always known that there is someone for me, somewhere.
It has been my dream for more years than I can count.
I recently began to doubt whether there exists such a person.
 
 
 
He exists!
Now I know it.
We met!
Finally.
 
 
 
He isn't a dream.  He is real, very real.
And he is absolutely amazing!
 
 
 
Barak
 
 
 
I am so happy.
 
 
November 13

The cherry in my glass

 
Alright, so what? 
 
 
We don't all have periods which bring us further or closer to our happiness? 
Our goals? 
Our dreams?
  
 
I've wedged my heels into the earth
About to pounce forward
Strong and willful
 
Oh, yes
I am so ready
I've waited patiently, hopefully and even at times desperately
 
I've made mistakes, more than a few
I've misjudged, often to my detriment
I've trusted and loved, only to find it was untrue
 
Still
 
I've always found the strength to get up,
dust myself off
and continue forward
 
I thank G-d that I was given this gift
the gift of being able to know that light exists
even in the darkest of times
 
Patience and perseverence
Faith and love
Vision and hope
They have all helped me through
 
 
 
 
Here I am!
 
Here I come!
 
 
 
It is all laid out before me
As it turns out
I was right
 
 
 
Dreams are simply reality waiting to be born
 
Dreams do come true
 
 
 
 
Ah, and the cherry in my glass? 
 
 
Maybe I'll tell that story another time ... maybe not
 
 
November 02

Just a passing thought

 
 
I'm usually an optimistic person.
 
 
Today I remembered hearing a verse in one of Lauryn Hill's songs ...
 
 
"It took me a little while to discover
Wolves in sheep coats who pretend to be lovers
Men who lack conscience will even lie to themselves, to themselves

 
A friend once said, and I found to be true
That
everyday people, they lie to God too
So what makes you think, that they won't lie to you
?"
 
 
Really, Elona.  What makes you think that they won't lie to you?
 
Still, I face this dilemma ...
to live in darkness, suspecting evil in everyone ...
or
to live as I believe we should live, in light, trust and goodness.
 
As you can see by my phrasing, I lean toward the latter, but G-d help me, sometimes I truly have my doubts.
 
I plan on remaining optimistic for as long as I can.  This was just a passing thought that I wanted to write about.
 
 
 
 
The song is "Forgive Them Father" and if you want to read the rest of the lyrics, here's the link (hope it works)
 
 
 
 
October 11

Yom Kippur in Tel Aviv

  

I wrote this really long email about recent events, and thought it was so good, that I'd post it!

 Here it is, after a few small edits:

 First, it should be known, that my birthday is on the way.  I'm not at an age where I should be getting excited anymore, but I still do, for no reason. 

 I got a present, a really nice present, an amazing present, on the eve of Yom Kippur.  They were from my biological mother who lives in Florida now -- mailed to the West coast somewhere (insured for sure) -- where my daughter's friend's mother took them on a plane to Israel. 

 Keep in mind that we were all in the mad rush before the fast, coordinating the whole family in TA, inflating mattresses, cooking, arguing with Alessia's roommates … Elisabeth (Alessia's friend, who's mother brought the present on the plane) comes in, and while I'm unpacking our things, she hands me this satin bag.  I said, "Let's do this a little later when the timing is a little better," and she understood.  So, a little later came, and Alessia saw that I had one of the rare moments where I actually sat down for a minute.  She gave me the bag, and I opened it.

 Then I opened the black box, which was in the satin bag.

 Then I was shocked.

 Alessia told me that they were real.

 Diamond earrings, about a 1/4 karat each!  Simple gold studs, beautiful.

 I immediately took off my opal earrings (which I never take off) and put the diamonds on.  I haven't taken them off since, and I have changed the rest of my jewelry to match it, meaning gold instead of silver.

 I don't think I'll want to wear them on a daily basis, but for now it's a very special feeling, and I'm enjoying it.  I did wear them to shul, of course.  I'll go back to silver when the holidays are over and save them for special occasions.

 Staying in TA was spectacular for Yom Kippur.  Logistics aren't all that easy, with cooking and sleeping arrangements, but I think the boys enjoyed it enough to convince them to do it again.  Candlelighting was at 5:04.  A few minutes before 5:04 you could just hear a lot less background noise … then, at 5:05, the whole city just went silent!!  Absolute and almost frightening silence.  We went to the front balcony and looked out.  Alessia lives on Nordau Boulevard, a very busy street.  There was one little kid, about 8 years old, with a dutch-boy kind of haircut, a white shirt, black pants and a kippah, skipping along right down the middle of the street with a huge smile on his face.  Not one car, no television sounds, no radio, no cellphones.  Little by little the streets began to fill with people walking, riding bikes, families, young, old, doing nothing but sitting, walking and talking.

 We sat to eat at about 3:45.  Chicken soup with noodles, honey roasted chicken, mashed sweet potatoes, string beans, beet salad, chopped liver … and at 4:57 I politely announced that whether you're done or not, we need to stop eating.  The rush was on.  Everyone gathered the dishes as quickly as possible, we washed dishes, wrapped the food, and drank as much water as possible with a bite or two of honey cake.  I covered my head and announced that I was lighting candles.  Elisabeth joined me.  Then, just as we were so rushed that we didn't know what to do, suddenly we had nothing to do!

 We went to shul, just missed Kol Nidre by a minute, but remained till the end of the Evening Service.  A nice ashkenazy shul where the women's section wasn't a total embarrassment (it wasn't totally closed), on the balcony with a nice view and only a very small lace curtain.  Alessia, Elisabeth, Erin (Elisabeth's non-Jewish friend from the States who came to visit with Elisabeth's parents, Paula and Bob) and me went.  Elisabeth is pretty good at this stuff, by the way.  Jewish stuff, I mean.  We did our best to keep up, and laughed a bit, too.

 After changing clothes, we walked down to the beach, and down to the Tayelet (the promenade) where again, the streets were just swarming with people walking and talking … one car, a security patrol, passed slowly and carefully.

 Most of the day was spent sleeping or talking.  Alessia's boyfriend, Doron, was there, too.  The boys told me that they wanted to go to shul, but when the moment came, they pooped out.  Too bad.

 We went to Ne'ilah (concluding services), which I like very much since they end the praying with a final Tekiyah Gedola (big shofar blasts – which in this case were kinda weak) and then we sing "Bashana Haba'ah b'yerushalayim" = Next Year in Jerusalem!  Paula came with us this time instead of Erin.  Alessia also got into it, which was nice to see.  She pointed out to us that an elderly woman sitting behind us, who had been smiling at us the whole service, had a number tattooed on her arm.  It just made us think, and especially on this day, at this time, at this place.

 We came home to a big pot of mint tea and honey cake (Erin arranged that for us), which was good enough to hold us until the bagels had been warmed up and all the fish was on the table.  It's simply a tradition to break the Yom Kippur fast with bagels and lox (and all kinds of salty and smoked fish).  A shot of whiskey (courtesy of Steve, a work mate of Alessia's) added a nice zing, too.  This was followed by a shitload of handmade chocolates which Paula and Bob brought from the States … ooof!  If we're supposed to "suffer" on Yom Kippur … believe me, that stuffed feeling was unadulterated suffering, even worse than fasting!

 We got back to Elyachin at about 11:30pm, after packing everything back up.  Edon had school (woke up at 6:30 for that) and I had work.  Got home from work and decided to take Sagiv out for a nice dinner at an outdoor, mid-Eastern BBQ place.

 Sagiv had cut his hand accidentally the other night at a friends house and has three huge metal staples right below the juncture of where the thumb connects to the hand, so was told to stay home until Thursday.  It's good that he has some time off, but it means he won't be with us at Sukkot.  He'll have to spend Sukkot on the base, which might be kinda nice, too.

 I realized that all his weekends home are so busy with family that he hasn't had a chance to eat at a restaurant for months, so this prompted the idea to take him out to eat.  He has recently fallen in love with Fois Gras, which has been recently illegalized here due to the cruelty issues.  We went to one restaurant and they told us that you can't get it in Israel any more, we tried another place and he got the last portion!  He loved it.  I told him that he got the last two goose livers ever to be eaten in Israel for the rest of eternity.  He didn't believe me.

 I will probably take the earrings to a jeweler to see what he can do to make the back fastening more secure, maybe even just a larger, more secure clip, I need to check the options.  I'm deathly afraid that I might lose one.  I'm sure they can do something, but I want to be sure to go to a jeweler I trust.  I don't want to let them out of my sight.

 So here it is, 11:30, and I must get to bed.  It has been an exhausting couple of weeks, and the party isn't over yet.  I'm working tomorrow and Thursday, and then need to somehow cook for 12 people who are coming to eat in our Sukkah.  The gardener is coming tomorrow, and a cleaning lady is coming Thursday.  This will help, but I still need to somehow buy the food and the all the stuff I need to build the sukkah (and do it without a car) and then I need to cook a fabulous meal in the few hours that I have before the guests arrive on Friday afternoon.

 FYI:

 Menu:
2 Sweet Challahs
Wine
Side dishes/Salads:
    Spicy roast pepper salad
    Beet salad
    Moroccan carrot salad, cooked in lemon
    Roast Eggplant Salad
    Eggplant slices with lemon
    Celery carrot lemon salad

First course - Appetizer:
   
Moroccan fish with tomatoes and olives

Second course - Soup:
   
Creamed Pumpkin soup

Third course - Entree:
   
Roast Beef (Prime Rib!)
   
Roast rosemary potatoes
   
Sliced mushrooms in the gravy
   
Asparagus

Fourth course - Dessert:
   
Fruit Salad
   
Cake
   
Mint tea

 All this, served in a crammed shack with palm leaves for a roof – go figure!  

 My Sukkah is 3 meters square – we figure that each person will have about 3/4 of a square meter … if we all stand.  I know I'll make it work somehow.

 Throughout the week, friends and neighbors will come to visit to sit in the sukkah, as well.  Edon will hang out there with his friends, of course, and following weekend, we'll have a smaller family meal to end all the festivities on Simchat Torah.

 I know that when all is said and done that I am creating traditions and memories for my children to have and to live by and one day to re-create when their turn comes.

 This thought is what makes it easy.

 When this is over, I have a project at work which may bring me to Istanbul for a couple of days in November.  I hope to close this deal, which will also ensure enough of a budget to get me that company car I've been waiting for.  Start-ups are a bitch!

 There's a huge multi-artist concert in Tel Aviv --- the night of the 26th!  Alessia is getting us tickets!  I'm sure they arranged this concert especially for me, of course.

 The first weekend in November, Alessia and I are going down to Eilat, all expenses paid, by my company.  We'll be staying at Herods, I think, which is supposedly one of the best (if not the best) hotels in Eilat.  I'm taking Alessia because Agrexco (where Naftali works) does this for their employees every Summer, but Alessia's never had the opportunity to go.  This is my chance to spoil her a bit, and anyway, it's not like I could bring Edon to a club to go dancing or something!  I'm sure it will be great.

 Since I wrote the email, and now looking back, I must say that Sukkot was a huge success, everything was absolutely delicious and the people mixed nicely, enjoying the whole experience.  We made our sukkah a little longer than usual, and it fit all of us comfortably, it was amazing!

 Funny thing, the next day, after our huge meal, my Sukkah collapsed from the weight of the palm leaves ... I put before-and-after pictures here ... it was sad, but as they say, "It could always be worse."  Imagine if it had collapsed during dinner!!!

 Edon is on school break for Sukkot, so decided to visit Alessia for the rest of the week.  He's going to be able to surf alot there since it's a short walk to the beach.

 Sagiv is stuck on the base for another two weeks.

 ... and I'm busy busy at work.

 

Life is good.

 

 

September 22

Opportunities await

 
Beit Habubot - Shi...

 

What can I say ... feels like good things are coming.

 

The new year appears to have brought with it many new images, visions and dreams on the verge of reality.

Time will tell, as always, but I am forever the optimist, hoping and praying, that I will meet who I have been dreaming of. Again, time will tell, and I am also scared.

Scared that if I build my hopes too high, that disappointment and sorrow will join me once again as I return to that dream which I have had for far too long.

Far stronger than this fear, is knowing that the chance of finding love is waiting at the threshold.

I will not, not ever ... I will NEVER ... allow any fears stop me from remaining open and loving, even if there is a price to pay in the end.  I believe that this risk is embedded in the very essence of realizing true love, for if one lives in fear, afraid of what may happen or what may not happen, if one gives in - to the fear of failure and the chance that a heart may be broken or even torn to shreds, you have lost the opportunity, thrown pearls into the abyss, never knowing that they were truly lifes treasure which you had been waiting for and dreaming of.

I trust that there are opportunities which will present themselves to me, as the new year begins filled with hopes, desires and dreams.

I pray for G-d's grace ...

For my children, their health and happiness

For safety and security in our home

For peace

For personal success in my daily endeavors

and deep within, I pray that my dream, of loving and being loved, truly, openly and fully, will be fulfilled

 

I am waiting for you

שיהיה לנו שנה טובה ומתוקה מלאה עם תקווה, שלווה, שלום ואהבה

May we see a good sweet year filled with hope, serenity, peace and love.

 

September 02

Onward!!

 
Back to writing a little ... or a lot.
 
Funny how I stop writing when things are going well.
 
So, I've given it away, things could be better ... ahh but they could also be worse.
 
After spending a few beautiful months dating Yali, I felt that something was missing.  Many things were beautiful, but there was still something missing.
 
The caring, warmth, and the love.
 
Love?  I'm not talking about that mad, fiery love which arises out of newness or change.  I'm also not talking about that deep love which develops from years of simply being together.
 
It could be that I'm not even sure what I mean when I say that the love was missing.
 
There was just a certain uncaring feeling.  Days could go by without finding the time to talk.  This is a strange thing.  This could be taken as a sign that something was missing.
 
I, being who I am, always try to remedy a situation.  I love fixing things.  Sometimes there are things which can not be fixed.  I could try to create that caring, to breathe life into it.  I thought about fixing it, it's my nature.  I could have stayed, patiently, investing more energy.  But why?
 
With all the wonderful things we had, if the warmth is not there, there is nothing to invest in.
 
I thank God that I've learned something very simple ... stop fixing things if you don't have it within your power to fix.  I can't fix people, and I shouldn't try to fix a relationship.
 
I'm not referring to a relationship where the love was once there, or where there is warmth and caring ... What we had here was something which never really started, so why begin?  Why waste my time?!
 
So, with this in mind, and not fully understanding how Yali felt, I asked him.  He basically confirmed that it isn't there.  I knew it anyway, I also felt it.
 
Love is so powerful and so strong, that it isn't only its presence which is felt.  Also its absence is felt.  This is not for me.
 
Yesterday morning, I told him, "Let's stop."  It just seemed right.  I know that this statement is far from the lengthy monologues which I am capable of, but I find that words come with great difficulty to me when I am discussing matters of the heart with Yali.  He doesn't talk about those kinds of things, so it feels like you're talking to yourself.  "Let's stop" was sufficient.  He understood and as usual remained silent.
 
I know that if I were to remain there, in a relationship with him and silent as he is, I would simply begin to suffer from this silence.  This is SO not me!  As I got out of the car, wanting to say so many things, I simply explained that I don't want to be in a relationship where I don't feel loved, and I wished him a beautiful day.
 
That was it!
 
There was so much I could have said, but I didn't.  This lack of communication had become the standard, and perhaps it was best that I walked away without explanation.  Ah, yes, before I walked away, the only words I could muster up, and this was more of a message than of a request ... I told him, "If you feel that you want me, call me, but don't wait too long."
 
I don't know why, but I don't even know if I want to remain friends with him.  Although we enjoyed many long and interesting conversations about life, politics, philosophy, etc, the depth was always missing and even friends need to show a certain amount of caring and love for each other.
 
Cold is just not what I am about.
 
I am proud of myself.  I have learned many things.  Yesterday, I learned that sometimes walking away is the only way to fix something.  I feel stronger now.
 
A day has passed, and I do not feel that I need to wait.  I will continue on my way ... happily and optimistically, as usual.
 

  
"The best and most beautiful things in the world  
          cannot be seen or even touched.               
            They must be felt with the heart
.
         
                                                                          
  

                             Helen Keller                           

 
August 27

Kinda down ... but ...

 
Just feeling down today, I guess.
 
We had a beautiful weekend.  Sagiv came home to visit.  We had a spectacular Saturday together.
 
He called me today to tell me that his battery was going out to the field for shooting practice so he won't be able to call me until Friday. 
 
 
Well, that's not really what's getting me down.
 
Time passes, I can feel it today.
 
Yali is adorable, but ... yes, but ... I shouldn't jump to any conclusions, but ...well, I just have my dream which I am unwilling to compromise on.  Love. 
 
Loving and being loved.
 
I refuse to give up, but ...
 
Time is passing ...
 
How long will it take?
 
 
 
July 21

Is this war?

 
Well, growing up in New York, I experienced war of sorts, I guess.  It was more like feeling like everyone was your enemy.  You couldn't really trust anyone.  Keep your periferal vision on, never fully turn your back, don't make eye contact, don't look happy.  These were good defensive tactics.  After many 3am subway rides to Brooklyn, I'm still here, so it must have worked, or else I was just lucky.
 
So here I am, hearing jets zooming by, surely holding missiles and bombs, heading North.
 
We aren't far from where the furthest Ketusha reached.  I know they reached Afula, which isn't all that close, but I also heard they reached Kesariya (the ancient Roman city named after Caesar).  Kesariya is really close!
 
We have pitchers of water and snacks in the room we call "the bomb shelter."  Every house in Israel is built with one, or is given a public bomb shelter designation.  We have our own.  It isn't all that much:  a room with a window and a door.  The walls are thicker (I think) and there's a thick sheet-metal shade outside the window which you can pull over the window.  The door is also really special with all kinds of padding around the posts.  Basically it's hermetically sealed.
 
I can't imagine having to stay in there, although my son probably thinks it would be cool.
 
Sagiv is being drafted in 2 more weeks.  His assignment is "Heavy Artillery."  Now I know what that is.  I've been seeing them on the news every day.  It isn't tanks, but canons and missile launchers on the ground.  He can't wait to go, but needs to finish his Basic and then Specialized training, so it will take about 3 months before he is assigned to active duty.  I hope it will all be history by then.
 
I don't think that the tactics I practiced in New York will help him.
 
His training will, for sure, and maybe some luck, too.
 
I just hope that Hezbollah, Hamas and any other terrorist groups are trampled and destroyed.  They flourish in disaster and chaos, hide within civilian areas, and manipulate the media.  I'm not saying that Israel has been perfect (I'm really disappointed in the IDF's performance), but try to remember the nature of the terrorists we are fighting.  What options do we have?
 
Shabbat Shalom L'kulam - a peaceful sabbath to all.